Random Thoughts: March 13th

I have a lot of random thoughts go through my head! This is a list of all of them (well most) for March 13th 2013. I thought it would be fun to go back in a year or more to see how my thought pattern has changed.

1. I should make a blogpost about all the random thoughts I have.
2. Good thing people can't smell bad breath through the phone.
3. Maybe I should stop eating lunch to lose weight.
4. My shoes look all dusty from walking through sand.
5. Is that a chopper I hear or a really huge fish blowing bubbles?
6. My feet are vibrating.
7. Hope I didn't step in dog poop!
8. Work is so boring.
9. Alma is kinda an odd name... sounds like almonds.
10. That orange is prolly rotten.
11. That orange is actually a tangerine.
12. I can't believe Anthony stayed up two days straight playing Star Craft.
13. Shine bright like a diamond.
14. I love my life.
15. I am FREEEEEZing even though it's like 72 degrees in here!
16. Uckk I wish I had a breath mint!
17. Why do some people spell Michael "Micheal"?
18. Having a family costs way more than living alone.
19. I hope no one turns off the heat.
20. Why does cotton candy turn into a hard rock even in an air tight container?
21. I wish Netflix had more Breaking Bad seasons available.
22. That grits casserole I made a few weeks ago didn't taste very good.
23. CRAMP! 
24. Hope my boss doesn't ask me if I'm freezing.
25. Wonder how many degrees it is outside.
26. Doing that mentor experience thingy in the 8th grade really sucked.
27. I want some garlic knots from Palace Pizza.
28. I wish I had some green stuff to take St. Patrick's day themed pics of Bear with.
29. I want to go to Dollar Tree.
30. You're beautiful like diamonds in the skyyyyy.
31. I forgot to record a bunch of my random thoughts! :O
32. I miss Bear... and Anthony.
33. I'm glad Charlie can't jump up on our bed anymore.
34. I really want cheese sticks.
35. I need to call Bear's old doctor and request his shot record.
36. This little light of mine...I'm gonna let it shine!
37. (A popular Spanish song's lyrics that I have no clue how to type)
38. So glad it's no longer freezing in here.
39. Uggg 2 more hours til I get to home from work!
40. I can't believe I have to work on a Friday this week >:[
41. I taste blood.
42. Elmo loves his goldfish!... His crayon too!
43. I miss my black light.
44.  Why does Nichole keep doing all of my work?!
45. I think cream cheese filled celery would be neat to go into a bento lunch.
46. My computer is so broken.
47. I should prolly throw out that rotten tangerine...
 

At about 4 I forgot to keep recording my thoughts. Boo! Then after dinner I got sick and went to bed early at 6. So these are random thoughts for half of the day only. And because I got sick I was unable to upload pics for Bear's 10 week post so that will not be up until tomorrow. 

Letters to my Long Lost Friends (Middle School)

Ever wonder what happened to your long lost friends? This is something I think about all the time. Currently I do not have any friends, I have LOTS of acquaintances but no friends. This kind of upsets me at times but not really, as I barely have time to watch TV now a days let alone hang out with friends.

Letters to my long lost friends:

Da'Shayla:
We met when we were 11 years old in the 6th grade! We were never super close but I did have a lot of fun with you riding on the bus home from school, making those cool string lanyards, eating candy, and just talking about life. I think you got kicked out of the school we were going to because one day you just transferred to the other school in our city. We later went to the same high school as well but I never talked to you. I would see you around, I wanted to talk to you but I just never did, probably because my shyness and social anxiety. I wish you would have talked to me, we would could have continued our friendship into so many years. I never did add you on Face Book. I don't know that I even ever seen a profile for you on Face Book, so I do not know where you are now or how you are doing. I haven't talked to you since I was about 12 and I haven't seen you since I was 14. I hope you are doing well, maybe I will try and find you on Face Book too.

Chelsea:
We met when were about 12 years old and in the 6th grade as well! We only hung out outside of school one time, and that was to go to the movies to see the Lemony Snicket Movie. Other than that we were in school friends too. You were my best friend at PE, we were buds, we always grouped together and it was very fun to hang out with you. I was glad that I had a friend to talk to through the beginning of my middle school years. We were pretty much BFF's all through 6th grade but when 7th grade started you changed. You got a new BFF, Livia. I remember she was in out PE class too, and you would always pick her over me. Over time you became more and more like Livia and you guys kinda just exiled me and became your own BFF's. You were doing things together outside of school and hanging out with guys, something I was not doing yet. I remember you liked her BF Danny and used to obsess over him. I always felt bad for you through that time, wondering if you would ever get over him and realize he was with Livia. I am sad that our friendship drifted the way it did, it really does suck. After middle school, we went to separate high schools. Later on down the road I found you on Face Book and you apparently had moved to Georgia to go to college there. We haven't talked on Face Book at all. I do not know that I am interested in talking to you all that much, while we did have fun when we were 12 it seems like we grew into two completely different people.

Caitlynn:
I met you when I was 13 and in the 7th grade! We were really close. It had been a while since I had a friend as close as you, you were much needed and I greatly appreciated our friendship. We had fun in school and out. We always hung out on the bus together, and talked about our crushes, and gossiped about other people, oh and I can't forget ate candy lol! Out of school, we went to Cypress Gardens (which is now Lego Land), birthday parties, and just hung out at each others houses. This was the age were we stopped playing and more like just hung out doing random things like getting on the computer or going for a walk around the block. We did get into some fights because our personalities did clash sometimes, but we got over those quickly. I remember one time you put your pants in the dryer and it burned them! I still think about that moment today, not sure why. We drifted when middle school was over and we attended different high schools. We still stayed in contact somewhat but not really. We remained friends on Myspace until that eventually went out of style and people moved on to Face Book. I recently with in the past year found you on Face Book. We got to talking and even texting. I thought for a minute there that we may become good friends again, but then you told me that you were moving to some far away state, I think Colorado or something like that. We could have still been texting buddies, but I am not really one for texting, it bores me and I run out of things to say, I would much rather hang out in person, which is not possible. Maybe one day you will move back to Florida and we will hang out again, I would enjoy that.

Kassey:
We met when were were 14 and in the 8th grade! I think it was the first week of 8th grade and you were new to my school. You brought along with you your BFF Nikki, who I was never really fond of to be honest. We hung didn't have any classes together but we hung out together before classes started and while we waited for the bus. We were even bus callers together. It turned out you lived right down the road from me so we got to ride the bus home together and hang out after school sometimes. We sometimes worked on homework together or played with your cats. You always seemed kind of prissy and I felt like you thought you were better than me. Even though you were my BFF I was not your BFF, that was always Nikki, I could never compete. This upset me, you used to always tell me about all the fun things you and Nikki were going to do together and it made me feel really left out that I could never be included. Never the less you we still had fun together. Once 9th grade came around, we started high school together, my dad used to drive you to school in the mornings with us, and we would hang out before school together. You were really into boys though, and I was not. You always seemed to have a new BF or a guy you wanted to talk to, and you always drug me along and I felt like the third wheel, but you were the best friend I had so I dealt with it. We tried out for soccer together, and made a new friend, Nikki (a different one). You and Nikki both made the team and I did not, this is where we drifted apart. You now wanted to hang out with one of the two Nikki's or your BF and had no time for me. I was forced to go make new friends as many people are. I later added you on Face Book as well but we don't talk. I think we have clashing life styles and I do not know that we would be all that good of friends is we started hanging out again.

Charlie's Story

Hello, my name is Charlie and this is my story.

I was born on November 28th 2009 in Lakeland, FL.

My doggie parents were both pure bred Dachshunds.

I had an awesome human family with a mom, a dad, a brother, and a sister too!

I even had 3 doggie siblings!

I loved to watch TV with my daddy and run around in my super cool fenced in back yard.

Sometimes I even sat around in ant beds and got all bit up.

That made me itchy, so my family put cream on my belly.

I thought it was yummy so I tried to lick it off.

But then my family put a sweater on so I couldn't lick it :[ 

I was a super happy dog.

Until one day my family got my sister a kitten for her Birthday.

That little kitten tore me up and fought with me every minute she could!

So my family put a big ol' sign in the front yard.

I don't know what it said cuz I can't read.

All I know is a few hours later I went to live with my new mommy and daddy.

I got into the car and took a really long ride with my new mommy.

When the ride was over we went into a different house and met my new daddy! 

I missed my old family but I LOVED my new family and still do!

They take me for walks and feed me lots of yummy food.

Daddy is my favorite. We always hang out.

We like to play video games together.

And he even used to let me sleep with him before he got that evil high bed that I can't jump into.

He never puts me in that doggie jail cage like my old family did either.

 When my daddy leaves I always cry.

I miss him so much and always wait by the door and watch out the window to see when he's coming home.

When he gets here I jump up and down and bark and smile and greet him.

I am always so happy to see him!

Lately my mommy and daddy have been putting this funky necklace on me! 

Not the kind of necklace you go for a walk with.

This one shocks me when I try to bark or howl because they are gone and I want them to come home.

I don't like this necklace.

Maybe they are mad at me for barking.

I am just sad that they left me at home alone.

Two months ago my mommy and daddy had a baby.

It's a boy named Bear and he's my new little brother!

I love my brother so much.

I always try to protect him.

I like to lay down next to him, although most of the time my mommy and daddy make me move.

When he cries I always hear him first and run to make sure he is okay.

Sometimes I am a bad doggie and I give him kisses.

I get in trouble for that, but I still do it because I love him!

Me and Bear are best friends.

We hang out all the time. (Well... when my mommy lets us)

I hope my new family keeps me forever and never gets a new kitten.

Maybe I will stop pooping on the carpet and covering it up with clothes just to make sure they don't want to replace me!.... NAH! They love me too much!

I can pretty much get away with anything.

I love my family.

Currently

Watching: I just got done watching The Glades, well the two seasons that are available on Netflix anyways. I liked that show but I was not crazy in love with it. It seemed sorta bland like nothing that hasn't been done before. I started watching another show last night called Life. This show is all ready getting on my nerves and I do not think I will continue watching it but I am giving it a chance to see what happens, as some shows I have to watch like 5 episodes before I can "get into" it.
Writing: Lots of lists. Lists of stuff I need to buy, stuff I need to do, people I need to call, finance lists, recipe lists, menus, and hey look now I am even writing a lists of all the lists I have been writing!
Listening: Anthony and I have been in the car more these past few weeks with going back and forth to Kissimmee and the Strawberry Festival. We have been listening to a lot of mainstream music. I am not one to look into names of songs but some of the verses that are stuck in my head are: "Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad? Girl your giving me a heart attack, trouble maker!" and "I wear my heart up on my sleeve like a big deal!" oh and can't forget about "My father said, don't you worry, don't you worry child, Heaven's got a plan for you". And yep these songs have been STUCK in Anthony and mines head for about a week now. They have been driving me crazy. I wish someone would come up with new music to play on the mainstream stations!
Thinking: I have been thinking a lot (more like worrying) about finances and how me and Anthony are going to make it. I try not to but it keeps coming into my brain. I applied for Food Stamps and found out we can't get those so looks like we are going to be on our own. Gah! I don't even want to type this because now here I go thinking about our bleak situation again.
Smelling: Poop. Seriously. This week Charlie has been pooping in the house A LOT! We are not sure why he is doing it but he is. And he hides it too by covering it up with anything and everything he can find from clothes to papers. So we smell the poop but can't find it.
Wishing: That we were financially stable. This one speaks for itself.
Hoping: That everything turns out well in the future. With Etsy, my blogs, our money problems, taking Bear to day care if we need to etc. I just hope so deeply that everything ends up okay and we do not end up having to move in with Anthony's mother in Kissimmee forcing me to quit my job, the only job I have ever known or had.
Wearing: My new fat pants. I finally broke down and bought fat pants after I weighed myself to find that I gone up from 122 to 126. I am trying to LOSE weight and yet somehow I am gaining weight. I was hopping to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 111 by the time Bear was 6 months old but that does not seem to be happening! I could not go any longer wearing the same pair of pants everyday to work because that was the only one that fit so I sucked it up and bought some new ones. I even packed away all my clothes that don't fit because they were taking up at least 50% of our closet and hangers. Hopefully I will be able to take them down and wear them again one day. :'[
Loving: Anthony. I am just over the moon loving my boyfriend these days! He is such a great father and always knows what to do to make me happy. His fun spirit brings so much joy to the house. When he is sleeping or not home I find the place to be pretty drab and end up wishing he would wake up or come back really soon!
Wanting: To spend $200 on Bento supplies and $200 on Etsy supplies. Sadly that is not going to happen. I may be able to get away with $50 on each but I am still not really sure at this point.
Needing: To start exercising. I feel like a complete bum. I went from walking 6-8 miles a day 4 times a week to not walking at all. Now a days it is just easier to take the car! And I do not have time to walk anyways. I should really rearrange my schedule to fit some exercise time in! Maybe it will even help me to retire these fat pants I just bought..
Feeling: I have been feeling very happy! There has been some lingering stress in there but every time I get stressed Anthony makes me feel better <3 I love him so much.
Clicking: On all the cute new things they have for sale over at bentousa.com!

What I Miss (and Don't Miss) About Being Pregnant

Now that I am no longer pregnant, I often find myself looking back on when I was pregnant and thinking about how things were when I was.

When I gave birth I was so over being pregnant! There were so many things that were driving me crazy. But there were a lot of things that I loved about being pregnant too! I decided to make a list so if I get pregnant again I will be able to compare and contrast with my next pregnancy.

So thankful these parts are over:

1. Being huge

2. Having to wear fat pants

3. Looking into the mirror and finding more stretch marks

4. Aches and pains

5. Being exhausted all the time

6. Not being able to see my feet

7. Heartburn

8. Not being able to walk long distances

9. Not being able to lift heavy stuff

10. Not being able to eat sushi

11. Planning 24/7

12. Stress

13. Worrying if my baby is okay

14. Worrying if we will make it through delivery

15. Being kicked while I was trying to sleep

16. Sore boobs

17. Swollen ankles

18. Doctors appointments every 10 minutes (ok that is an exaggeration lol)

19. People staring at me like I am a pregnant teen when I am really 21

20. Not being able to bend down

21. People treating me like I am not ready when clearly they know nothing about me

22. Bleeding (had this for over three months in 1^st trimester)

23. Being super hungry all the time

24. Craving things

24. Not being in prime health

26. Feeling like my body is weak

27. People treating me different

28. People acting like I am sick

29. Gaining weight

30. Extreme gingivitis

31. Taking vitamins and other pills

32. Worrying every time I get even a tiny symptom of a cold

33. Nausea

And some things that I actually miss about having my sweet boy in me:

1. Knowing where he’s at at all times

2. Being able to eat a lot and not worry about weight

3. The excitement

4. Sleep

5. Writing in my belly journal every week

6. Taking belly pics every week

7. Not having to walk to work

8. Being able to take it easy and not feel bad about it

9. Having insurance

10. My hair not falling out

11. Great skin

12. Felling my baby kick

13. Planning his room

14. Buying baby stuff (not that I still don’t do this, just when you are pregnant it is really a lot more fun because the excitement)

15. Talking to other pregnant people

16. Going to ultrasounds

17. Not thinking I am fat and stressing over losing weight

18. More food on WIC

19. Being relatively free (life is different now with a baby I do LOVE my life and I am not complaining about responsibilities but it was nice to have none)

20. Not worrying about getting pregnant

Looks like there were way more annoying things about being pregnant than good things lol. I don’t think this will stop me from wanting another baby in the future though. I love my baby so much that I am 100% sure I am going to want to have another one in a few years. I really hope that Anthony and I are able to make it to where we can financially afford to expand our family! I am very hopeful that God will help us with that and continue to bless us with a growing family.

Friday's Letters

Dear Charlie, You are driving me crazy! I love you but the peeing on the floor everyday has got to stop! I know this is probably partially Anthony's fault for not taking you out but still... it needs to stop. So does the obnoxious walking back and forth when you eat. P.S. you are still my cute little doggie. Dear Sister, Good luck with your new dog... ha. You are about to be tossed into the life of scrubbing carpet, smelly dog breath, itchy fleas, expensive vet visits, scooping poop, wondering where all those tiny hairs came from, being drug around on a leash, getting nagged to go outside when it is 20 degrees out, and lots and lots of puppy love! I'm sure you'll be a great doggy mommy. Dear Carpet, I am so sorry you are getting abused. It's a part of life. Get. Over. It. I will try and get you steamed up and smellin good once my apartment complex finally renews my lease (that expired like a month ago!). You'll be so clean you may even get asked out on a date by that cute new rug I have seen laying around in the master bathroom. Dear Mother in Law, You are awesome and I am glad you are coming over for two days to spend time with us, but I am seriously stressed over the whole thing! I really hope you enjoy the meals we plan to cook you and hopefully Anthony doesn't chose all man movies to watch while you are here. I know you say you like them but really? What woman wants to watch a movie that has nothing but guns and bloodshed? Hmmmm... maybe I'm just odd. And I hope mild Italian sausage isn't too spicy for you! Dear Strawberry Festival, We are going to you tomorrow and I am super duper exited! Please don't take all my money!
Dear Mall, Same goes for you! Dear Florida, I know you are busy trying to be a rebel but come on all ready! It's March, why is it 36 degrees out?!?
Dear Fat Butt of Mine, PLEASE shrink! I am so tired of having to wear the same two pairs of pants to work every day because I can't fit into anything else. OK, so maybe I should lay off the cupcakes...and the fried cheese... and the Dr. Pepper... NAH! Dear Bloggy Friends, Check it out I made a my first ever button! I know it sucks but it was the first time I EVER made anything in Photoshop so I think I did pretty good :]

Letters to my Long Lost Friends (Elementary School)

Ever wonder what happened to your long lost friends? This is something I think about all the time. Currently I do not have any friends, I have LOTS of acquaintances but no friends. This kind of upsets me at times but not really, as I barely have time to watch TV now a days let alone hang out with friends.

Letters to my long lost friends:

Elizabeth:
You were my first friend! We met when we were just 6 years old. I have many fond memories with you like, all the fun crafts we did, our crazy sleepovers, swimming in your little pool, and even going to Disney. I remember we used to fight over the stupidest of things like who's shoes were cleaner lol. I suppose this was because we spent way too much time together, but the fights never seemed to keep us apart. We always made up and were playing outside again in a few hours. It really does suck that you moved so far away, we had such a strong friendship. We even managed to get pregnant together when we were 17! I thought this would bring us closer having a baby at the same time, but it didn't we were still very distant only talking once in a blue moon on Myspace. Your daughter is now 3 and I have only ever met her two times and your second daughter is almost one and I have yet to meet her at all! It is crazy how best friends can just simply grow apart like this. We finally started talking again when I saw on Facebook that you had started a blog. I thought that maybe we could be blogging pals! You even called me after reading my blog. We talked for like an hour than you had to go. We then did not talk for about a month not sure why that happened, I guess life just got in the way. We now talk again through text and I read your blog on a daily basis and sometimes even post comments. I see that you are going through a lot and I am sorry you have to go through those things, I wish you the best of luck. Maybe one day we will move closer together where we can re-kindle our friendship. You really were the best friend I ever had, I never did achieve a friendship with anyone else that was as strong as the friendship that we shared.

Kinsey:
I met you when I was about 8 years old! I remember standing outside and you rode your super cool bike down the road right in front of me. I wondered to myself "Who is that and why don't I know her?" the rest is history! We had a lot of fun together you, Elizabeth, and I. The three of us were never close as a group because we always seemed to get along better when it was just two people rather than three. I remember we had so much fun jumping on your trampoline, playing in your tree house, and swimming in your pool! We even had fun giving your pet turtle a bath. I always thought your house was so cool and was super jealous of all the fun stuff you had.  I don't know what happened to us, it's like one day you just vanished. You were there and we were friends and then you were not, it was very odd. I think you moved in with your dad but I never got the details straight. Later on we did attend the same high school but never met up once or even talked. I know you became a varsity cheerleader... and me well I became nothing, so I guess we grew up to have clashing lifestyles. It did not surprise me when I found out you were a cheerleader, you were always super pretty and into those kinds of things. I was scared to talk to you to be honest because I felt like you would think you were superior to me. I found you on Face Book a few years after we had graduated high school. We chatted some and said we should hang out like old times but that never happened, in fact that was the only time we chatted as well. We remain Face Book friends today but we do not talk. It's almost as if we were never friends and our memories are forgotten.

Jessica:
We met when we were in 1st grade! So around 6-7 years old. I remember you were in my class and we walked home from school together on some days. We had lots of fun playing outside in the Florida sun, riding bikes, building ramps, making slip and slides because our parents would never buy one, and playing with many different litters of kittens.We were very fond of each other but one day you just moved away as well. It wasn't long after we met maybe 6 months later? The little memories that I do have of us are very sweet, I wish we would have made more. I later found you on Face Book as well. Like Kinsey we said we should hang out like old times but never did and then didn't seem to talk anymore after that. It's strange how this happens so much, maybe people just don't want to hang out with me but they say they do? Or maybe their life is too busy. We are still friends on Face Book, I read your posts all the time but never comment on them, I am not much of a commenter though. You have a daughter now too that is a little younger than Seth, and she looks just like you when you were a little girl! It is crazy seeing pictures of her. I would like to talk to you more and be friends and maybe even hang out? Who knows where that could go.

Casey:
You were more of my sister's friend because you were older than me, but we were still friends never the less. I met you at around 8 as well I believe. Your grandmother (Granny Smith as we called her) lived down the road from me and we would hang out when you visited her house. We had fun watching movies, exploring the neighborhood, going to the park to try and fish, going to your moms house and playing in the woods, and just hanging out in general. It always seems like we were getting into trouble with you, like that one time you broke your arm at the park, and the time I got stuck in the baby stroller in the middle of the road, and the time that we you, my sister, and I all got lice together. I don't know what it was, we just seemed accident prone while together. Never the less, we did have a bunch of fun. I don't know what ever happened to you either, like much of my other friends, one day you were just gone. I have not seen you or talked to you since I was about 10 years old. Maybe I will look you up and try to get back in contact over the great Face Book, and maybe we won't be so accident prone now that we are grown lol.

Kaleigh:
We met when we were 9 years old in the 2nd grade! You were my best friend in second grade. We hung out outside of school sometimes, I know we went to a few sleep overs together and birthday parties, we even saw a parade together once. For the most part though, you were my in school friend. We hung out at lunch, and PE, and in class of course. I really enjoyed your company and being friends with you those years that we were friends. It was nice to have a BFF by my side and not to be a lone wolf. In third grade we sort of drifted but then were in the same class again in fourth grade and we were friends again. I do not remember fifth grade but I know we went to different middle schools which pretty much ultimately caused us to completely drift apart. We did attend the same high school later on, I saw you in the courtyard but was always too shy to talk to you or make conversation. It is odd of the best of friends can turn into that... too shy to talk to each other. I was just worried you had moved on and had new best friends and would not have any interest in talking to me. I saw you in Wal-Mart one time with two of your other friends, you were super loud and kind of scared me to be honest, which is why I said hi and quickly walked away. We were basically always friends on Face Book, and yet we have never really talked. We are now pregnant together again, you with a girl expected due date is I think 2 weeks after Bear. I tried to make conversation to you about your pregnancy thinking that since we now have something in common maybe we could re-start our friendship, but you always seemed to kill the conversation just a tad bit after I started it. I suppose you aren't really interested in being friends with me all that much, which really does kind of sadden me, I really wanted a close friend that was pregnant at the same time as me.