99 Questions

 Saw this on anther blog and thought it would be fun so here we go!

 

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

No preference, some days it's open and some closed.

2: Do you take the shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotel?

I can not even remember the last time I stayed in a hotel.

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

I don't sleep with a sheet. Just the fitted sheet and a thick blanket.

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

Yes actually lol. When I was 16 and it was a speed limit sign.

5: Do you like to use Post-It notes?

I used to at work but then I realized that emailing was just as good.

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

All the time.

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

I guess the bees because I would have a greater chance of living and/or not losing a limb. But really come on what kind of a question is that! lol

8: Do you have freckles?

A few.

9: Do you always smile for pictures?

Nope.

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?

I am not sure...I have a lot.

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

HAHAHA I used to when I was in my teens. I felt like a dork but I couldn't stop.

12: Have you ever peed in the woods?

In the woods... no. In the bushes... yes.

13: What about pooped in the woods?

In the woods... no. In the bushes... yes.

14: Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?

No.

15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?

Pens yes & pencils no.

16: How many people have you slept with this week?

One.

17: What size is your bed?

Queen.

18: What is your song of the week?

Don't have one.

19: Is it OK for guys to wear pink?

Yea I think so. Pink is just a color. Tutu's and dresses... now that is another story.

20: Do you still watch cartoons?

With my son.

21: What’s your least favorite movie?

Vanilla Sky.

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

I would not bury a treasure! Like really who would do that?! lol

23: If you’re a girl, bra size? If you’re a guy, pants size?

I really don't know somewhere between C & D.

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

Honey Mustard or Bar-B-Q.

25: What is your favorite food?

Don't have one but I ADORE cupcakes and chicken nuggets.

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Vanilla Sky or the new Alice in Wonderland.

27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?

Anthony

28: Were you ever a Boy/Girl Scout?

A girl scout for like7 years! lol I over did it.

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

NO.

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

About a year ago to Anthony?

31: Can you change the oil on a car?

HA no. I can't even pump gas.

32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

No I have never even drove a car.

33: Ever ran out of gas?

My dad has while I was in the car when I was like 5, he had to push it to a gas station.

34: Favorite kind of sandwich?

Cuban.

35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?

Steak! or Cupcakes! I'm not a breakfast person, I eat what I want when I want it.

36: What is your usual bedtime?

About 9:30 PM but lately I have been hitting the hay at 7:30 I know WEIRD.

37: Are you lazy?

Unfortunately yes.

38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?

Oh lots of things, but the only two I can remember are a mouse and an old man.

39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?

Goat.

40: Are you horny?

No. 

41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

Yea I have one for Nat Geo Kids... It may have just ran out thought not sure.

42: Which are better, Legos or Lincoln Logs?

Legos! I never understood Lincoln Logs

43: Are you stubborn?

Definitely.

44: Who is better…Leno or Letterman?

Who are they?

45: Ever watch soap operas?

No but I have watched a lot of shows that seem like soap operas lol.

46: Are you afraid of heights?

Not really.

47: Do you sing in the car?

I don't sing unless it's a baby song to my son or a playful song to my boyfriend.

48: Do you sing in the shower?

No.

49: Do you dance in the car?

No.

50: Ever used a gun?

BB Guns and Airosoft guns but never a real one.

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

2007 in 9th Grade.

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?

Most of them but I like Chicago and Sweeney Todd.

53: Is Christmas stressful?

Not really.

54: Ever eat a pierogi?

Yes. They are yum.

55: Favorite type of fruit pie?

Cherry or Apple.

56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Anthropologist, Pediatrician, Scientist, Crime Scene Investigator. All of these make me laugh now lol.

57: Do you believe in ghosts?

Nope.

58: Ever have a deja-vu feeling?

Every now and then.

59: Take a vitamin daily?

Calcium.

60: Wear slippers?

Nope.

61: Wear a bath robe?

Not a BATH robe but I do have a fuzzy zebra robe I throw on when I'm cold.

62: What do you wear to bed?

Depends on the day. Sometimes I wear PJs others I just sleep in my jeans.

63: First concert?

Never been to one.

64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Love Target but there isnt one close, hate Kmart... so at the end of the day I'm stuck with Wal-Mart which is ok by me but their service is kinda bleh .

65: Nike or Adidas?

Nike.

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheetos.

67: Peanuts or sunflower seeds?

Depends on my mood. Sometimes I just do not have the patients for sunflower seeds but other times it's fun to sit and peel them.

68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

Nope. 

69: Ever take dance lessons?

Ha no.

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Ummm I could see Anthony as a Cop or a cashier haha.

71: Can you curl your tongue?

No.

72: Ever won a spelling bee?

Never have been in one.

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Don't think so.

74: Own any record albums?

Not a single one.

75: Own a record player?

No.

76: Regularly burn incense?

No, my step mom used to do this and it made me despise the smell because she did it too often.

77: Ever been in love?

Yep.

78: Who would you like to see in concert?

No one singers are just people like you and me, why stand in the hot sun when I can just flip on the radio?

79: What was the last concert you saw?

Never been to one...

80: Hot tea or cold tea?

Neither! I hate all tea.

81: Tea or coffee?

Coffee but I will only drink it cold like a Frap or iced coffee.

82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?

Sugar.

83: Can you swim well?

No. If I was drowning I could barley swim well enough to save my life.

84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes.

85: Are you patient?

Sometimes.

86: DJ or band, at a wedding?

DJ I guess.

87: Ever won a contest?

A few.

88: Ever have plastic surgery?

Nope.

89: Which are better, black or green olives?

Green. I don't really like black, they lack flavor.

90: Can you knit or crochet?

No but I have tried to crochet quite a few times.

91: Best room for a fireplace?

Bedroom so you can be toasty all night long :]

92: Do you want to get married?

Yes I do.

93: If married, how long have you been married?

Not married...Yet.

94: Who was your HS crush?

LOL I didn't have one actually.

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

Nope.

96: Do you have kids?

Two.

97: Do you want kids?

Yes I want my kids! lol.

98: What’s your favorite color?

Yellow.

99: Do you miss anyone right now?

Bear :/

Goodness that was a LONG questionnaire! :]

My Thoughts on Facebook

Warning: This is a highly opinionated post. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions; this is MY opinion and is not intended to offend anyone.

There once was a time when I actually enjoyed getting on Facebook. I liked posting pictures of what was going on in my life, mainly pictures of me, my cat, or random things. I loved to post status' and see what responses I got from them and how many likes I would get. And I enjoyed reading and looking through what other people on my friends list were posting as well. I even did a little Facebook stalking from time to time (come one we are all guilty of this!).

Now, it's different. Don't get me wrong, I still do hop on Facebook from time to time but now it is only about once a week as opposed to 3-4 times a day (WHOA what a change!). I no longer post status' and in the past 8ish months I have only posted 2 pictures. When I do get on, it is mainly to read what other people are saying. Typically I read for a few minutes; get aggravated and then log off.

I do not understand WHY people feel the need to tell their 564654 friends on Facebook everything they are doing! Stop worrying about telling other people what you are doing in your life and just do it! Live your life! It almost seems like some people are slaves to Facebook, like they HAVE to post what they are doing, when they are doing it, where they are, all the cute pics they are taking. I guess you may even venture to say some people are addicted to Facebook. Maybe some are just so lonely, or bored? Who knows. I have found that the most important things in life are things that are not found online. God and family. How can you worship God or spend time with your family if you are so worried about posting about it on Facebook? Don't you feel weighed down? Having to pull out your cell to post a status that you and the kids are at the Dairy Queen? Why not just GO to the Dairy Queen and enjoy it instead? Why report it to others? Are you trying to make them jealous? Or are you trying to make a image for yourself? So when people think of you they think of you as the mom who takes her kids to do fun things like get ice cream? The fact of the matter is, if people base their opinions of you off the stuff you post on Facebook, they must not know you very well. Why would you want to tell all that stuff to strangers?!? I just don't understand. Please feel free to explain.

I know some of you may be thinking, "Well you do the same thing with your blog!". This is true, to an extent. Blogging is a hobby for me. I do it because I like to write and because I want to have a written journal like thing of the days when my son was growing up, so I can later go back and read them. I know that not very many people look at my blog and I have this blog for me not for anyone else. I post so I can remember my thoughts and things I am doing in my life, not to see what people's reactions are.

Another thing that bothers me: how easy it is for information to reach people through Facebook. I have no pictures of my son on Facebook because I feel it is not safe. I fear for his life and for mine and for Anthony's. Why you may ask? This is because I fear that if my ex (the father of my first son) finds out I have another baby and a family and I am HAPPY that he will get angered and then find out where I live and come and kill us all in our sleep. This may sound silly but this is a TRUE fear. The man is crazy and unstable and that is something that he would do. Facebook would make it very easy for him to contact some mutual friends or random people that commented on something on my page and dig to find where I live. It really blows my mind that there is actually a site out there that offers up so much personal information about a person and their life. It is almost like inviting someone to stalk you. Even if you do not have a page or your page is private, there is STILL information about you in some form or another on Facebook! It is all on other people's pages, you just have to know which ones to click on. This just blows my mind.

Some days I feel Facebook should be shut down, but then I remember the business aspect of it. I do believe that it is a wonderful tool for business' to use to reach potential buyers and for buyers to discover new things. Other than that, I think it is a pretty bad thing to have all that info about yourself out there on the web, in such a known place. Blogs are different, because people can not simply go "Hmmm I wonder what Rose is doing... let me look up her blog!" They have to know your blog first, and in order for them to know your blog chances are you will have to give it to them.

Some days I think about de-activating my Facebook, but I never do. The reason is because they have made it almost necessary to have one! Which is ridiculous! There are some people that the only way I can contact them is through Facebook, forcing me to keep one for those times when I need to contact those people.

It seems like as time goes by people are falling more and more into Facebook and more and more info is being posted on there. For now I can only hope that it will die out someday. But I somehow do not see that happening.

Letters to my Long Lost Friends (Elementary School)

Ever wonder what happened to your long lost friends? This is something I think about all the time. Currently I do not have any friends, I have LOTS of acquaintances but no friends. This kind of upsets me at times but not really, as I barely have time to watch TV now a days let alone hang out with friends.

Letters to my long lost friends:

Elizabeth:
You were my first friend! We met when we were just 6 years old. I have many fond memories with you like, all the fun crafts we did, our crazy sleepovers, swimming in your little pool, and even going to Disney. I remember we used to fight over the stupidest of things like who's shoes were cleaner lol. I suppose this was because we spent way too much time together, but the fights never seemed to keep us apart. We always made up and were playing outside again in a few hours. It really does suck that you moved so far away, we had such a strong friendship. We even managed to get pregnant together when we were 17! I thought this would bring us closer having a baby at the same time, but it didn't we were still very distant only talking once in a blue moon on Myspace. Your daughter is now 3 and I have only ever met her two times and your second daughter is almost one and I have yet to meet her at all! It is crazy how best friends can just simply grow apart like this. We finally started talking again when I saw on Facebook that you had started a blog. I thought that maybe we could be blogging pals! You even called me after reading my blog. We talked for like an hour than you had to go. We then did not talk for about a month not sure why that happened, I guess life just got in the way. We now talk again through text and I read your blog on a daily basis and sometimes even post comments. I see that you are going through a lot and I am sorry you have to go through those things, I wish you the best of luck. Maybe one day we will move closer together where we can re-kindle our friendship. You really were the best friend I ever had, I never did achieve a friendship with anyone else that was as strong as the friendship that we shared.

Kinsey:
I met you when I was about 8 years old! I remember standing outside and you rode your super cool bike down the road right in front of me. I wondered to myself "Who is that and why don't I know her?" the rest is history! We had a lot of fun together you, Elizabeth, and I. The three of us were never close as a group because we always seemed to get along better when it was just two people rather than three. I remember we had so much fun jumping on your trampoline, playing in your tree house, and swimming in your pool! We even had fun giving your pet turtle a bath. I always thought your house was so cool and was super jealous of all the fun stuff you had.  I don't know what happened to us, it's like one day you just vanished. You were there and we were friends and then you were not, it was very odd. I think you moved in with your dad but I never got the details straight. Later on we did attend the same high school but never met up once or even talked. I know you became a varsity cheerleader... and me well I became nothing, so I guess we grew up to have clashing lifestyles. It did not surprise me when I found out you were a cheerleader, you were always super pretty and into those kinds of things. I was scared to talk to you to be honest because I felt like you would think you were superior to me. I found you on Face Book a few years after we had graduated high school. We chatted some and said we should hang out like old times but that never happened, in fact that was the only time we chatted as well. We remain Face Book friends today but we do not talk. It's almost as if we were never friends and our memories are forgotten.

Jessica:
We met when we were in 1st grade! So around 6-7 years old. I remember you were in my class and we walked home from school together on some days. We had lots of fun playing outside in the Florida sun, riding bikes, building ramps, making slip and slides because our parents would never buy one, and playing with many different litters of kittens.We were very fond of each other but one day you just moved away as well. It wasn't long after we met maybe 6 months later? The little memories that I do have of us are very sweet, I wish we would have made more. I later found you on Face Book as well. Like Kinsey we said we should hang out like old times but never did and then didn't seem to talk anymore after that. It's strange how this happens so much, maybe people just don't want to hang out with me but they say they do? Or maybe their life is too busy. We are still friends on Face Book, I read your posts all the time but never comment on them, I am not much of a commenter though. You have a daughter now too that is a little younger than Seth, and she looks just like you when you were a little girl! It is crazy seeing pictures of her. I would like to talk to you more and be friends and maybe even hang out? Who knows where that could go.

Casey:
You were more of my sister's friend because you were older than me, but we were still friends never the less. I met you at around 8 as well I believe. Your grandmother (Granny Smith as we called her) lived down the road from me and we would hang out when you visited her house. We had fun watching movies, exploring the neighborhood, going to the park to try and fish, going to your moms house and playing in the woods, and just hanging out in general. It always seems like we were getting into trouble with you, like that one time you broke your arm at the park, and the time I got stuck in the baby stroller in the middle of the road, and the time that we you, my sister, and I all got lice together. I don't know what it was, we just seemed accident prone while together. Never the less, we did have a bunch of fun. I don't know what ever happened to you either, like much of my other friends, one day you were just gone. I have not seen you or talked to you since I was about 10 years old. Maybe I will look you up and try to get back in contact over the great Face Book, and maybe we won't be so accident prone now that we are grown lol.

Kaleigh:
We met when we were 9 years old in the 2nd grade! You were my best friend in second grade. We hung out outside of school sometimes, I know we went to a few sleep overs together and birthday parties, we even saw a parade together once. For the most part though, you were my in school friend. We hung out at lunch, and PE, and in class of course. I really enjoyed your company and being friends with you those years that we were friends. It was nice to have a BFF by my side and not to be a lone wolf. In third grade we sort of drifted but then were in the same class again in fourth grade and we were friends again. I do not remember fifth grade but I know we went to different middle schools which pretty much ultimately caused us to completely drift apart. We did attend the same high school later on, I saw you in the courtyard but was always too shy to talk to you or make conversation. It is odd of the best of friends can turn into that... too shy to talk to each other. I was just worried you had moved on and had new best friends and would not have any interest in talking to me. I saw you in Wal-Mart one time with two of your other friends, you were super loud and kind of scared me to be honest, which is why I said hi and quickly walked away. We were basically always friends on Face Book, and yet we have never really talked. We are now pregnant together again, you with a girl expected due date is I think 2 weeks after Bear. I tried to make conversation to you about your pregnancy thinking that since we now have something in common maybe we could re-start our friendship, but you always seemed to kill the conversation just a tad bit after I started it. I suppose you aren't really interested in being friends with me all that much, which really does kind of sadden me, I really wanted a close friend that was pregnant at the same time as me.

I've realized...

that my relationships with everyone other than Anthony and Bear are really, extremely, weak. :[

This weekend I sent my sister a picture of Bear via email. I sent her one of my favorite pictures of him that I have taken so far. This was the first picture she has seen of Bear because I do not post pictures on Facebook. She wrote back saying how cute he was. I then replied wanting to start a conversation, by telling her about how I am going to try and take professional-ish looking pics of him for Valentines day. She then replied back with "Oki Doki".... this made me realize that I have VERY weak relationships.

My sister and I were always close and I *thought* we still were but apparently that is not the case. It pains me to say this but it is true. I used to call her all the time to talk or to hang out before Bear was born. It was fun and I really enjoyed it. After Bear was born I was in Kissimmee for a long time and very busy with adjusting to life so I had little time to call and chat with her, but I did do so once. But over the coarse of 5 weeks, she did not call me one time. Not to see how I was doing, not to see how Bear was doing, not to chat, not to hang out... not one time. D: The same is true for my dad.

This got me to thinking..."Why am I always the one who has to make an effort?" aren't relationships supported to be about give and take? I feel like I am putting into it and they are noting giving anything back.

I bet that if I did not call them they would never pick up the phone and attempt to talk to me. Do they just not care? Are their lives THAT busy? I just don't understand. All I know is that I don't want to be the one that always has to call first. I want to feel that others (my family), care about me and want to talk to me, or at least make sure I am still alive.

I am just very thankful for Anthony and Bear. I know we have a tight bond and I am going to work very hard at making sure it gets stronger and stronger. I guess it's ok that I they are all I have. Now that I realize that that is indeed the situation, I AM ok with it. I wish it was not the case, I really wish my family would make some effort to show they care about me, but hey, at least I'm not alone. I get plenty of love and affection from Anthony and Bear and that is really all I need at the end of the day. I love the two of them more than anyone or anything on the planet.

As for my sister and father... I guess I won't be calling them anymore. I would like to see how long it takes for them to pick up the phone and call me. I will post a follow up once they do so (if that ever happens).

 The picture I sent my sister. (The cutest baby I ever did see, maybe I'm bias but I don't care!)