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I am currently:

Thinking about - Etsy - We just did a bunch of crayons last night and I am stressing because we should have sent them out earlier than we did.

Watching - Grey's Anatomy Season 9, SO GOOD! and Hell on Wheels Season 2, me and Anthony used to watch this and stopped a long time ago because we ran out of episodes to watch, Netflix just added more so now we got back on the wagon. I do say I didn't care for the show all that much before, but now I am really getting into it.

Listening to - Pandora - I swear I have no clue why I never discovered it until now but I am officially addicted! Too bad it's blocked at my job :/

Wanting - A Vacation - Oh what I would give for just 5 days to RELAX. No work, no cooking, no cleaning, no errands, no shopping, no lawyers, and no financing! 

Hoping - I can get everything done that needs to be done.

Wishing - I had more money - Don't get me wrong, I am not broke. But I would like more money to purchase some things I have really been wanting.

Stressing - EVERYTHING!- Etsy orders, launching my Halloween line, being slammed at work, Seth's court date, needing to clean my house, needing to go shopping soon, having enough money, it goes on and on. I feel like I am drowning in stress I really do.

Missing - The 90's - I did not have a good childhood by any means but, fully supporting 3 (hopefully soon to be 4) people and ensuring they have everything they need for survival... is HARD. I know that sounds kinda whiny and that is not what I am after, I would not change it for the world. I just feel like it would be nice to sit back and not worry for a little. Maybe even just a few minutes?

Loving - My Life - Yea I know it sounds like I am contradicting myself here lol. I am stressed and it is hard but I REALLY do love where my life is at and where it is going. I and so thankful for my family and everything we have and continue to be blessed with. Times are great. We are going over some hills right now but I know at the end of the day they are just obstacles and I am not letting anything stand in my way of being happy and enjoying this great life with my family.

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Currently I am:

Watching: The Walking Dead season 3 and Game of Thrones season 3. Anthony watched both of these shows before me and I spent about 3 weeks watching seasons one and two of the two of them and finally got caught up, so now we are enjoying the third seasons together :] I am just loving both of them too! We also just watched The Rise of the Guardians (we both LOVED it) and The Hobit (Anthony liked it and I fell asleep lol)
Reading: This blog. My heart and prayers goes out to that family. I could not imagine the pain they must be in.
Writing: Blog post after blog post! I have been doing a lot of blogging lately. Well compared to my recent activity anyways.
Listening: Linkin Park Pandora. Anthony and I have started listing to this station quite a bit while we make crayons. We jam around the apartment while we work. It makes for some fun quality time together.
Thinking: About finances. I just got paid today and it was the expected amount but after adding up all the monthly expenses we have $300 left over as opposed to the $30 that we calculated last month... I am quite confused and worried I am leaving some bill out, but I can not seem to find one. I have no clue how the numbers came up so differently than they did when I added them up last month.
Smelling: Axe. Yea so I wear man deodorant. We are all a little weird. I normally use Old Spice but we (Yes Anthony and I share) ran out of that and happened to have some Axe, so that is what we have been wearing lately.
Wishing: That I understood why God takes such young innocent children to be in Heaven with him.
Hoping: That our Etsy shop will launch soon and that we will be very successful and meet all of our goals in due time.
Wearing: Two jackets. I am wearing one correctly and one backwards (the back on my chest and arms through it so the hood is hanging under my chin). It isn't really even cold in here, I just like being cozy.
Loving: My baby boy. His sweet smile is melting me everyday. I can't wait to go home and spend a little play time with him before I have to cook dinner, clean the house, and get to work on Etsy.
Wanting: A bright future for my son. Right now we have no idea what the future holds. All we know is that we will be together. This is the most important thing, but I would like to know that we will be financially able to provide for Bear always and at this point we are just taking it one day at time not knowing how much money we will have and if it will be enough.
Needing: To pee. Which I will do when I am done posting this :]
Feeling: Tired! I stayed up to midnight last night making crayons and then woke at 6 AM. I am beat.
Clicking: Nothing in particular! I have been all over the place looking at stuff from blogs, to bento, to Etsy stuff, to baby stuff.

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Watching: I just got done watching The Glades, well the two seasons that are available on Netflix anyways. I liked that show but I was not crazy in love with it. It seemed sorta bland like nothing that hasn't been done before. I started watching another show last night called Life. This show is all ready getting on my nerves and I do not think I will continue watching it but I am giving it a chance to see what happens, as some shows I have to watch like 5 episodes before I can "get into" it.
Writing: Lots of lists. Lists of stuff I need to buy, stuff I need to do, people I need to call, finance lists, recipe lists, menus, and hey look now I am even writing a lists of all the lists I have been writing!
Listening: Anthony and I have been in the car more these past few weeks with going back and forth to Kissimmee and the Strawberry Festival. We have been listening to a lot of mainstream music. I am not one to look into names of songs but some of the verses that are stuck in my head are: "Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad? Girl your giving me a heart attack, trouble maker!" and "I wear my heart up on my sleeve like a big deal!" oh and can't forget about "My father said, don't you worry, don't you worry child, Heaven's got a plan for you". And yep these songs have been STUCK in Anthony and mines head for about a week now. They have been driving me crazy. I wish someone would come up with new music to play on the mainstream stations!
Thinking: I have been thinking a lot (more like worrying) about finances and how me and Anthony are going to make it. I try not to but it keeps coming into my brain. I applied for Food Stamps and found out we can't get those so looks like we are going to be on our own. Gah! I don't even want to type this because now here I go thinking about our bleak situation again.
Smelling: Poop. Seriously. This week Charlie has been pooping in the house A LOT! We are not sure why he is doing it but he is. And he hides it too by covering it up with anything and everything he can find from clothes to papers. So we smell the poop but can't find it.
Wishing: That we were financially stable. This one speaks for itself.
Hoping: That everything turns out well in the future. With Etsy, my blogs, our money problems, taking Bear to day care if we need to etc. I just hope so deeply that everything ends up okay and we do not end up having to move in with Anthony's mother in Kissimmee forcing me to quit my job, the only job I have ever known or had.
Wearing: My new fat pants. I finally broke down and bought fat pants after I weighed myself to find that I gone up from 122 to 126. I am trying to LOSE weight and yet somehow I am gaining weight. I was hopping to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 111 by the time Bear was 6 months old but that does not seem to be happening! I could not go any longer wearing the same pair of pants everyday to work because that was the only one that fit so I sucked it up and bought some new ones. I even packed away all my clothes that don't fit because they were taking up at least 50% of our closet and hangers. Hopefully I will be able to take them down and wear them again one day. :'[
Loving: Anthony. I am just over the moon loving my boyfriend these days! He is such a great father and always knows what to do to make me happy. His fun spirit brings so much joy to the house. When he is sleeping or not home I find the place to be pretty drab and end up wishing he would wake up or come back really soon!
Wanting: To spend $200 on Bento supplies and $200 on Etsy supplies. Sadly that is not going to happen. I may be able to get away with $50 on each but I am still not really sure at this point.
Needing: To start exercising. I feel like a complete bum. I went from walking 6-8 miles a day 4 times a week to not walking at all. Now a days it is just easier to take the car! And I do not have time to walk anyways. I should really rearrange my schedule to fit some exercise time in! Maybe it will even help me to retire these fat pants I just bought..
Feeling: I have been feeling very happy! There has been some lingering stress in there but every time I get stressed Anthony makes me feel better <3 I love him so much.
Clicking: On all the cute new things they have for sale over at bentousa.com!

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I am currently...

Loving: My new blender! This thing rocks! Even though it is a super cheap-o one that is very low quality, I am still so happy to have one and be able to use it to make smoothies! Anthony is quickly falling in love with smoothies as too. :]
Hating: The fact that everything I bought with in the last week is malfunctioning! >:[ I am going to do an in depth post on this in a few days but, this past week Anthony and I bought a crib that we could not figure out how to put together, a dryer that had issues with the ventilation tubes, a washer that leaks, a swing that the batteries burnt out for in two days, and a tub of yogurt that had a freak accident at the factory and was not sealed right. Talk about bad luck lol.
Wishing: I had some direction as to what to do with my financial problems and whether or not to start selling on Etsy again.
Obsessing Over: Bento! I am eating, breathing, sleeping bento! Can not keep the stuff out of my mind for any longer than a few minutes :]. I am even starting a second blog just to post about my Bento creations.
Watching: Grey's Anatomy: Season 9. LOVE this show! I am almost out of episodes again though because they are still airing this so it has yet to come to DVD in full season form. I have 14 episodes and I have watched 6 all ready. :/
Wanting to See: Franken-Wienie. I keep telling Anthony to get this movie for me. He still hasn't. We will see how long it takes him to lol. I don't really think I will like this movie but it is one of the only new-ish kids movies that's out that I have not seen yet.
Eating: For lunch today I had a peanut butter & banana sandwich and apple sauce. A quick and light lunch. Quite boring but I had no time or resources to make anything better this morning. The sandwich was super yum I don't remember the last time I had a PB & B sandwich!
Working On: Bear's room. We are setting it up slowly, we have to figure out how to put the crib together and how many other things we need to buy for it, then we can paint it and set it all up. His theme is pandas/bears/jungle/green. I hope it will be cute lol we are working on a VERY tight amount of money.
Wearing: The same pair of pants I have been for a week! Gross right? I only have two pairs of pants that fit me right now since I still need to lose 12 lbs before I am back to my per-pregnancy weight. I am wearing one pair and the other pair I unfortunately stained last week! Again with the bad luck lol. Working with this tiny budget means we can not afford to buy new clothes, so I really hope I am able to lose the weight quick because I have like 10 pairs of pants that would fit if I did.

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I am currently...

Loving: My life. I am glad to say that I am finally to a place where I actually LOVE my life! I mean sure there are rough patches here and there but aside from those normal petty issues I've got it pretty good. I do often sit down and wonder... WHY? why is my life so good? Why am I so blessed? Why are there others that are not as blessed? I feel sometimes that I do not deserve to have this. I just continue to thank God everyday for the many blessings he has provided me and my family with, and pray for those less fortunate.
Hating: The cold weather. Ok ok.... I know that to most people 50-60 degrees is not considered cold lol but being Florida born and raised that is absolutely freezing to me! I would die if I lived anywhere that snowed. That is a fact.
Wishing: I had a Lap Top Lunch Box, a muffin tin, and a swing for Bear. I have been wanting a Lap Top Lunch box (or 10) for like a whole year now. I just have not yet found the funds to buy one... maybe when I get my tax return in a few weeks I will treat myself. :] I have also been wanting a muffin tin for Muffin Tin Mondays but I can not find one that has just 6 spots in it anywhere! Well aside from the internet but I would rather buy one from the store so I don't have to pay for shipping. I seriously cant believe that Wal-Mart only sells the 12 compartment ones, I thought Wal-Mart had everything. And the swing... I have been wanting one of these since I was pregnant. I got a 60$ gift card from my co-workers which would have been perfect for buying a swing but I had to end up using it to buy a vacuum cleaner because of my flea infestation a few months back (getting rid of fleas requires a good vacuum cleaner and LOTS of vacuuming). Good news is Anthony is planning to buy one for Bear next week with money he is getting from a car wreck settlement.
Watching: American Horror Story: Asylum. Me and Anthony got into this show after we so an add for it in the Xbox Live market place. It is one of the most creepiest shows I have seen but it has definitely got Anthony and me hooked. We watch an episode everyday after dinner. Unfortunately there are only 2 seasons and we are almost done with this one so we will soon have to find a new show to watch.
Listening to: Nothing actually. I used to listen to music ALL the time. I remember there was a time when I would never go out with out my iPod. Now music just seems to bother me. It seems to racquety. Yikes it sounds like I am getting old! Me and Anthony do listen to music in the car but other than that we pretty much don't bother with it anymore. Also I have this stupid song stuck in my head... its the alarm that wakes me up every morning and it is the most ANNOYING thing. It goes something like this: bing, bing, bing... goodmorninnnnnnng! bing, bing, bing, goodmorninnnnnnng! pa, pa, pa, pa, pow, pow, pa, pa, pa, pow! Goodmorninnnnnnnng! and so on, it drives me nuts but gets the job done lol.
Playing: Kirby Epic Yarn for Wii. I just got this game from Gamefly a few days ago and I love it! Kirby is turned into a little yarn character and can do lots of cool things like turn into a car, submarine, or hot air balloon. He is in a place called Patchland and everything is made of fabric and yarn. I wish I had more time to play this. Seems like once I get home, cook dinner, eat, and watch a show with Anthony I am really tired and just want to sleep. Hopefully this weekend I can find some time in between taking care of Bear too play this super cool game :]
Wearing: I can fit in my fuzzy jacket again! Yay! It became too small around 30 weeks pregnant and I had to set it aside until now. I have been wearing it to work everyday this week, oh how I have missed you fuzzy jacket!
Eating: Raspberry Poptart. Today for breakfast I am having a raspberry Poptart. I know not the healthiest but never the less it gets the job done. For lunch I have spaghetti and meatballs, garlic bread, and salad (left overs from last night).