Letters to my long lost friends:
Laura:
We met when I was 18 and you were 20. One day Tiffany and I went up to where you work and I asked you if you wanted to come over to my apartment, you said yes and we became friends. We did all sorts of crazy things together but mainly we just sat around and sulked. We reached rock bottom together. We enabled each other and we were bad for each other. I do not think we really should have been hanging out at all. I got the vibe that you were using me to stay in my apartment, hang out with my friends, and for money; all the time. But I still hung out with you because I was so lonely. We did have some really fun times though doing things like walking up to the 7-11 to buy Slurpees or to the Publix to buy cupcakes. We made art together sometimes too. We were covering my wall with papers trying to make it into a rainbow. That was fun. We even went up to the pizza place you worked at to get free pizza every night. I remember you used to clean my house sometimes while I was at work or buy me random things like sodas. I felt as though you were trying to butter me up but I still accepted your offers. Laura, together we were BAD! One time you tried to convince me to shoplift from Publix with you. I am glad I didn't because I later saw you got caught and spent 3 months in jail. You hooked me up with alcohol all the time and enabled me. Without you I do not know that I would have ever gotten as addicted to it as I did. Eventually you tried to kill yourself and got sent away. I never saw you again. I really felt for the longest time that that was my fault because the day you almost killed yourself, I bought you alcohol and you were depressed. Instead of coming to my house you went to yours to drink alone. I heard from some people that you got out of the mental institution and moved to Wisconsin with a guy that you met. I also heard you broke up with him and moved back? Who knows. I hope you are doing well but I do not wish to ever talk to you again. You introduced me to a very bad man who did very horrible things to me and you knew before hand what he was capable of because he did those same horrible things to you. I forgive you but I do not think that I could ever bring myself to be your friend or even acquaintance again.
Lindsay:
We met when I was 16 right after I had dropped out of high school. We always had an off and on friendship. We first started talking online on Myspace and then I hooked you up with Justin (my ex's brother). You would come over and the four of us would hang out and do dumb things like listen to music or make bacon together. After you and Justin broke up we hit a wall in our friendship and did not hang out for probably a year with little contact in between. Later you started coming over again to talk to Justin as friends. You got into some bad things with him so I kept my distance from you. Unfortunately you never got away from those bad things at all. We stopped talking when I was about 18 and did not start again until about a year later once I had broken up with Zack and moved into my own place in Bartow. I got to know you better during this time it was the closest we ever got. I did not like the person you became though. You were hanging out with bad people and dating drug dealers. I never stayed around you when you were doing drugs I always went home because I did not want to be around any of that. We did drink together a few times maybe 4 but that was it. We had some fun too like going to get you a tattoo, driving to Kissimmee to see Anthony, "trying" to go to the beach, and going to Halloween Horror Nights, and just hanging out and talking. I remember one time I called you to see what you were doing and you said you were going to an NA meeting. I told you I wanted to go to give you support! I was so proud of you. Turns out you were no where near getting better. I was forced to stop hanging out with you all together because I did not like your lifestyle. If you get clean and get it together maybe we could be friends again. But I do not know that I could ever trust you as you have told me you have turned your life around before just to turn around and go back to your bad ways a few days later. I am sorry I had to stop talking to you I was just looking out for myself.
Taylor:
We met when I was 19 and in college. You were my first and only college friend. Hopefully I will have more when I go back. We had a few classes together and we talked a lot of times but I don't think you liked me very much because you never wanted to be my partner. And when I tried to add you on Facebook you didn't want me to. We stopped talking when I stopped going to college. I bet you are way ahead of me now and we will never be in the same classes again. This saddens me some but not a whole lot because our friendship was very short lived. I hope you are doing well, I would have really enjoyed becoming great friends with you. Too bad that never happened.
Selena:
We met when I was 17 but didn't really become friends and start hanging out until I was 19, right after I moved into my apartment that was right down the road from your house. We started talking on Facebook and the first time we really hung out was at Halloween Horror Nights. That was fun! After that we became great friends! We did lots of fun stuff together like cook, clean (that's not fun but together we had a good time), talked, walked, played Xbox, and sometimes we drank together too. I enjoyed having a friend that was a girl that lived so close. You were one of the best friends I ever had and I really enjoyed the time that we were close. We started slowly drifting once you started hanging out with Jessica more. She basically replaced me. I am still upset over this. When I talked to you about it you said the only reason you hang out with her more is because she calls you everyday and tries to hang out all the time.You then told me to be close with you I would need to talk to you everyday because you forget. This offended me. I felt like you wanted me to put all the work into the friendship while you put close to nothing in. It seems one sided to me. I stopped talking to you to see if you would still make an effort to talk to me but you did not. At that point I knew our friendship was dead. You probably think we drifted because I had a baby and my boyfriend moved in, but that is not the case. I do think about you and I chose not to talk to you because I feel like you do not care to talk to me. If you talk to me first, call me or facebook me... I will be glad to talk to you and be your friend, but until then I am not interested. <--- UPDATE: Since I typed this post you have contacted me on Facebook, you invited me to your son's birthday party. Me and the family went for a few minutes and then left because we had other things to do, since then we have been texting and talking a lot more. I hope that our friendship gets stronger like it once was, but only time will tell.
Lexi:
We have known each other since the middle school but did not start to talk until I was about 18. We talked on facebook ALL the time! I thought we were really good friends. We talked about my crayon sales on Etsy and about how you were going to help me one day. We were into all the same things and had fun talking about them. We didn't hang out until I was 20. One day you came over to help me paint my bedroom. You were supposed to help paint a whale on the wall but that never happened. We ended up just painting it all blue. After that you wanted to move into my apartment along with Drew. I said yes and was very exited. I was so thrilled by the thought of someone living with me! And a girl that was my friend at that! I was over the moon. I thought we were going to have so much fun together all the time. But boy was I wrong. When you moved in you stayed in your room 24/7. We only ever hung out probably 5 times over the course of 8 months. On top of that you ruined my house and I developed a lot of resentment toward you for that. I am sorry that I had ill feelings toward you but I feel that the way you were treating me was unfair. I felt as though you were stealing from me when you took my food with out asking. And I felt like you did not care about me and were very inconsiderate when you made a huge mess and left it there for weeks. I refused to clean up after you and Drew because you are both grown adults and you need to clean up after yourselves. And not to mention that if I cleaned up after you the place would be a horrid mess again just a few days later. We stopped talking when you moved out. I really wish to never talk to you again that is how angry I am with the way you treated me and my house. You are supposed to come by sometime and get the few things you left there when I call you. To be honest I have been putting this off for a month now because I do not want to see you. You also owe me $700 and I do not want to get let down when you come over and say you don't have the money (because we all know you are never going to pay me back). I hope you are doing well in your new apartment and not reeking as much havoc on that one. Maybe your new roommates are pushovers and clean up after you. To be honest I just feel bad for them.
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