Dieting

Dieting... SIGH.

I didn't want it to have to come down to this but I am afraid I am going to need to start dieting. I have noticed that my weight is going up instead of down and after a bit of research I would like to say I have an idea why that is happening.

After I had Seth I did  not diet afterwards, the weight just seemed to come off on it's own. This time it isn't happening. I have gained 7 lbs since I had Bear! When I left the hospital I was (I think) around 121. I am now 128 and this is upsetting me quite a bit. I know I am not fat but I am not at the weight that I would like to be. Ideally I would like to be 111 lbs, the weight I was before I got pregnant. I would settle for 115 but anything over 115 seams over weight to me. Because I have been hovering between 99 and 114 since I was about 14 years old so for me this is my NORMAL, and anything else is fat. I want so desperately to get back to my normal so diet here I come!

.... right after I finish off all the non-diet stuff I have laying around my house. Not because I am delaying it but because I do not want any perfectly good food to go to waste. So over the next week I will be eating the chocolate cake, lemon cake cookies, and Cheetos I have sitting in the kitchen. Then I will be ready to diet!

I am not so sure I will be able to get much exercise in due to the fact that I really do not have much time for that. But maybe I will start walking to work or walking home from work and then eventually work into walking to and from work everyday. I have been having a hard time walking long distances now a days because I am out of shape. It used to be I could walk 8 miles a day no problem but now I go 2 and I feel completely fatigued beyond belief.

So, I will start with adjusting what I eat. My plan is to consume no more than the following each day.
Calories- 828, Fat - 27G, Cholesterol - 124MG, Sodium - 994MG, Carbs - 124G, Fiber - 10G, Protein - 21G and Sugar - 14G

I have been looking at calculators and I do realize that this is going to be HARD! I am not too worried about the cholesterol, sodium, fiber, or protein. I am going to try and focus on not going over the calories, sugar, fat, or carbs. I also realize the reason I am not losing weight is because I am currently exceeding these amounts everyday even though I am often skipping lunch and breakfast, I still end up going over the amounts at dinner time.

The goal is to lose 2 lbs a week over 9 weeks for a total 17 lbs loss. And be back to my 111 lbs by June 26th.

We shall see. I will let everyone know the progress that I am seeing. This will not be steady though because I do not own a scale and Anthony would never let me buy one because he knows I would worry too much when I got on it and it did not say what I would want it to say lol. But when I happen to be in Publix I can weigh myself (when Anthony isn't looking) to see my progress.

I made a ticker for when I post updates :] I will post the updated ticker every time I weigh myself. Here's to a new lifestyle! Wish me luck!

If You See Something Rolling Down the Street...

Thad'a be me! lol

I know I just had a baby less than 2 months ago but I still feel HUGE! Last time I was weighed was at 3 weeks postpartum and I was still at 121 lbs. Before I got pregnant I was 111 lbs so I need to lose at least 10 lbs to be back to my ideal weight.

TBH I feel like I am gaining weight :O I won't know for sure if I am until next week at my 6 week PP check up (because I don't own a scale). I really hope that I lost some amount of weight even if it was only 1 lb.

I can now fit into 2 pairs of my jeans (the two bigger pairs I own). But the rest you can forget about it! This really upsets me because I basically have all this clothes sitting in my closet and I cant even wear any of it. Not to mention I don't enjoy wearing the same pair of pants to work everyday either (eek hope no one noticed!). I refuse to buy bigger clothes because I am determined to lose those last 10 lbs!

Anthony thinks I am fine and says I don't need to but for some reason I feel like I do. I have always feared being fat, I know that sounds silly but it is true. I have never been fat, and I do not feel that I am fat right now, I just feel like I weigh more than I would like to.

I do not want to go on a diet. I hate the thought of restricting what I eat, because I love food and I love eating! I do however, think that I may have no choice but to go on a diet, because since Anthony moved in I am no longer walking to work everyday, so I am not exercising at all. Maybe Anthony will get a job forcing me to walk to work again lol.

I remember after Seth was born I didn't do anything to lose weight. I didn't exercise either. I gained more weight with him than I did with Bear as well. When Seth was about 2-3 months old I remember I still had some lbs to lose. I didn't take any pics with him because I felt fat in all the pics. With Bear I have a different outlook. I  feel fat and think I don't look like myself in the pictures, but I am still taking pictures with Bear because I feel it is important he has pictures with his whole family.

I heard it is way harder to lose baby weight the 2nd time, I am hoping this is not true. I do not remember when I was officially back to my pre-pregnancy weight with Seth but I know at around a year after he was born, I was at 99 lbs. I am ok with being 121 for a few months but if I do not see results by the time Bear is 6 months old I am taking some serious actions! In the mean time, I will try and cut back calories and watch what I eat to try and help the weight loss process (all though I am hoping it will happen naturally like after my 1st pregnancy).

Now for some pictures!

1 year after Seth was born (I had no belly stretch marks yet) I was about 105 here.

 A few months later I dropped to 99 as seen here. Oh what I would give to be that small again! lol

Pre-pregnancy weight I was actually 4 weeks in this pic but you can't tell yet. I was 111 lbs

1.5 months after Bear was born (eek stretch marks!) I think it looks like I'm still pregnant too. 121 lbs here

A shot of all the stretch marks I got from Bear.

 

UPDATE: At my 6 week appointment I found out I actually had gained 1.5 lbs! :O So I am not currently at 122.5 SIGH.