I know I just had a baby less than 2 months ago but I still feel HUGE! Last time I was weighed was at 3 weeks postpartum and I was still at 121 lbs. Before I got pregnant I was 111 lbs so I need to lose at least 10 lbs to be back to my ideal weight.
TBH I feel like I am gaining weight :O I won't know for sure if I am until next week at my 6 week PP check up (because I don't own a scale). I really hope that I lost some amount of weight even if it was only 1 lb.
I can now fit into 2 pairs of my jeans (the two bigger pairs I own). But the rest you can forget about it! This really upsets me because I basically have all this clothes sitting in my closet and I cant even wear any of it. Not to mention I don't enjoy wearing the same pair of pants to work everyday either (eek hope no one noticed!). I refuse to buy bigger clothes because I am determined to lose those last 10 lbs!
Anthony thinks I am fine and says I don't need to but for some reason I feel like I do. I have always feared being fat, I know that sounds silly but it is true. I have never been fat, and I do not feel that I am fat right now, I just feel like I weigh more than I would like to.
I do not want to go on a diet. I hate the thought of restricting what I eat, because I love food and I love eating! I do however, think that I may have no choice but to go on a diet, because since Anthony moved in I am no longer walking to work everyday, so I am not exercising at all. Maybe Anthony will get a job forcing me to walk to work again lol.
I remember after Seth was born I didn't do anything to lose weight. I didn't exercise either. I gained more weight with him than I did with Bear as well. When Seth was about 2-3 months old I remember I still had some lbs to lose. I didn't take any pics with him because I felt fat in all the pics. With Bear I have a different outlook. I feel fat and think I don't look like myself in the pictures, but I am still taking pictures with Bear because I feel it is important he has pictures with his whole family.
I heard it is way harder to lose baby weight the 2nd time, I am hoping this is not true. I do not remember when I was officially back to my pre-pregnancy weight with Seth but I know at around a year after he was born, I was at 99 lbs. I am ok with being 121 for a few months but if I do not see results by the time Bear is 6 months old I am taking some serious actions! In the mean time, I will try and cut back calories and watch what I eat to try and help the weight loss process (all though I am hoping it will happen naturally like after my 1st pregnancy).
Now for some pictures!
1 year after Seth was born (I had no belly stretch marks yet) I was about 105 here.
A few months later I dropped to 99 as seen here. Oh what I would give to be that small again! lol
Pre-pregnancy weight I was actually 4 weeks in this pic but you can't tell yet. I was 111 lbs
1.5 months after Bear was born (eek stretch marks!) I think it looks like I'm still pregnant too. 121 lbs here
A shot of all the stretch marks I got from Bear.
UPDATE: At my 6 week appointment I found out I actually had gained 1.5 lbs! :O So I am not currently at 122.5 SIGH.
