A Letter to my Father

Dear Anwar,

You may be wondering why this is addressed "Dear Anwar", the reason is, I feel abandoned and like you no longer want to be my father, so why should I call you anything other than your name? I feel so hurt that you no longer call me or come to see me. You are were one of the most important people in my life. Now you don't even exist. I just do not understand what I did wrong. What is it that I did that was so bad that you had to banish me from the family? As small and dysfunctional as it may be it was still MY family. You never call me to see how I am doing or how Bear is doing. Since Bear was born (almost 2 months ago) you have only seen him one time and during that time you only held him for about 30 sec. than ran out the door to go home to your wife because she was calling you. Do you not care about the fact that WE are your family? Are we nothing to you? Or are you just so scared of your wife that you are bending over for her and not contacting us? What is it? I would really love to know.

I am also very hurt and upset that you would not help my family and I (which is also YOUR family) when we were stranded 30 miles away from home. We were standing outside by our car for 5 hours with our newborn baby and you could not even help us because you needed to "go home and relax". It is beyond me. You talk to me on the phone like we are best pals but then you refuse to help me, come over to see me, or even call me first. I am always the one who has to make the first call. If I do not call you I will not hear from you for weeks. What if I die? Ever think about that? How would you even know? You would not.

I heard from Raihan that you invited her to go the Strawberry Festival next weekend with you and the family. What about me? I want to come to, I want to spend time with my "family"! If you can invite her, why can't you invite me? I really don't understand your logic.

I am very remorseful when I say this, but I am currently in the process of letting you go. It is very apparent that you want nothing to do with me or my son. I am not going to continue to make an effort to be a part of the family and have you in our lives with you acting the way you are. This is not the way you treat the people you love.

I am very sorry that it has come to this but I do not know what else to do.