If you are lost as to why I was not wanting to contact her... click and read my previous post.
Here is how it went. I came into work yesterday to find a Christmas gift bag with gifts on my desk. Next to the bag was a little note that said the contents were for Bear and my sister. I wanted to not say anything to her but I knew I had to because it would be wrong of me to keep her gifts from her when they were clearly meant to go to her.
So I decided to call her... the last time I talked to her was probably about 3-4 weeks ago. I called... and the phone rang and rang... then voice-mail. Guess she wasn't too interested in talking to me (not surprised). So I then decided to send her a text message. Here is how it went.
Me: Hey Abdu gave me some gifts for you so you can come and get them from my house.
Her: lol....okay, are you in Bartow (that's the city I live in) for forever now? I miss you :[
Me: Yea I have been for like 2 weeks.
Her: Oh... lame
Me: You didn't call me to ask if I was or anything....
Her: I have been busy. (classic cop out excuse, what on earth is it that you were SO busy with that you could not contact your family for almost a month? I didn't say that just thought it)
Me: So..... when are you going to come over?
Her: I don't know.
And that is where I ended the conversation. I feel like I am pulling teeth to get her to talk to me and I don't want to do that. I am not interested in forcing myself into someones life even if that someone is my family. She says she misses me but to be honest I feel that her words are fake because if that was true I don't think she would have said "I don't know" when I asked her when she was coming over. If I missed someone I would make plans to see them right then and there even if the plans were not for a week.
This upset me but like I said in my previous post on the subject... I am ok with it. It is ok that my family does not care enough to contact me unless I contact them first. And I will continue to not contact them to see how long they really do go. I still have not heard from my dad at all, it has been about a month... and he lives literally 5 min down the road from me. I almost feel bad for them that their family means nothing to them. Sigh. What is this world coming to?
I'm sorry it's been so difficult. I just finished this book called Living Successfully with Screwed Up People - trying to deal with the own screwed up person in my life. It had some good tips - it won't be easy but I'm going to try to put them to use!
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