Shows I Adore

I have been wanting to make a post about the TV shows that I LOVE to watch. I do not have cable so I just watch what I can get a hold of through Netflix and other similar programs.

These shows are ones that I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE! (Not in any order).

1. Heroes - watched all the episodes and show has ended
2. Dexter - watched all the episodes and waiting for new seasons to come out
3. Grey's Anatomy - show is still going I am halfway through the current season that is airing on TV
4. Nip/Tuck - watched all the episodes and show has ended
5. Six Feet Under - watched all the episodes and show has ended
6. American Horror Story - watched all the episodes and waiting for new seasons to come out
7. The Walking Dead - watched all the episodes and waiting for new seasons to come out
8. Game of Thrones - currently watching the season that is airing on TV
9. Breaking Bad -  watched most of the episodes but still need to get the newer ones
10. Desperate Housewives - watched all the episodes and show has ended
11. Hell's Kitchen - watched several seasons but have not been able to get a hold of a lot of the new ones
12. True Blood - watched most of the episodes but still need to get the newer ones
13. Law and Order: SVU - currently watching these every now and again

And these are shows that I love but not nearly as much as the ones I just listed.

1. Prison Break - watched to like season 3 and then got bored with it but still a great show
2. The Glades - watched all available ones on Netflix but don't really wish to pursue getting more
3. Man Vs. Food - watched all available ones on Netflix but don't really wish to pursue getting more
4. Ramsey's Kitchen Nightmares - currently watching these every now and again
5. Hemlock Grove - watched all the episodes and waiting for new seasons to come out

So if you are ever bored and wanna check out some new shows... there ya go! A list of super awesome shows to get into and most are available on Netflix! But be warned most of these are the kind of shows that once you get into them you just don't wanna stop watching and end up getting glued to the TV!

Why Bears?

I think anyone who looks at my blog will notice that I am kind of obsessed with bears. A lot of you may wonder, what started the whole bear theme in my life. And yes it does seem like my whole life is bear themed lol.

Here is the explanation: When Anthony and I just started talking and were not yet a couple we would text A LOT. We talked about anything and everything. I think the whole thing first started when he said something about licking me... but I am not entirely sure. I then turned it into something of the effect of I was his mommy bear and needed to lick him to get him clean. This was just a simple conversation that we had. Later on down the road, he sent me a text saying something like "I'm hungry but I can't find any food!" and the image of a very cute and fluffy brown bear rummaging through a kitchen popped vividly into my head. I said something to explain this image to him and ever since we have been building on the whole bear thing.

It started out as him being the baby bear and me the mommy. But it later turned into him being a brown bear and me being a polar bear, because he has dark skin and I have light skin. When I got pregnant we started calling our baby the panda bear because pandas are part white and part black... technically he would be a brown and white panda not a black and white panda but we still call him panda. :)

Seth is only a half a bear because Anthony is not his father, and my ex is not a bear. We say that there are only five bears in our species. Anthony, me, Bear, Yogi, and Boo Boo. Yogi and Boo Boo are in our species because they can talk too just like us :]

When we decided to name our son Bear, this actually had nothing to do with the fact that we love bears. Bear is just a name that I came up with and Anthony liked. I suggested to him several names, probably around 30 and the only one he liked was Bear. I also originally wanted to spell it "BEHR" but he insisted we spell it "BEAR", and since I did come up with the name I figured I would give him the spelling.

Yes we do call ourselves bears, but no we do not believe we are actually bears. It is just something cute that we do. You know all those silly/crazy/cute things you do with your spouse? Well this is ours, and I absolutely love it.

2013

Here's to you. Here's to me. Here's to you and me.

Here I am at 11:50 PM on news years eve alone. 

Anthony is at work.

I can only think about one single thing. 

How much I love him.

This man is the only person on the planet that has the power to hurt me.

I tore my wall down for him.

I let him in.

He has my heart in his very fist to do with it as he pleases.

When we first started talking I was scared.

It took him 9 months to get me to let him in.

But I did it.

I gave him myself.

I am so happy I did but so very scared that he will chose to do bad with what I gave him.

I love him so much that every time he breathes kinda of funny I have a miniature heart attack. 

Every time he is a few minutes late home from work I freak out, I lose it mentally I become so terrified that he won't ever come back, my whole world shakes violently.

I do not know why I am so distant from everyone.

I suppose it had something to do with my childhood.

Most people would describe me as a cold person.

A person who doesn't care about anything.

This is not true, but to an extent it is.

I care about others but I do not care about their actions toward me.

No one can truly rock my boat, but Anthony.

I know this is choppy and doesn't flow but that is just because I am writing how I feel.

How I feel at this very minute.... scared.

Scared to death that the love of my life will leave me or be taken from me.

Everyday I pray for another day with him.

And I often find myself thanking and rejoicing in the lord for the minutes that we are able to spend together.

I know nothing lasts forever but here's to hoping it last a VERY long time.

Here's to you. Here's to me. Here's to you and me.

I love you, I want you forever, and I will do anything under the sun to be with you everyday for the rest of my life.

I will guard what we have with my life.

I Dream of a Family

Let me start off by saying this was a VERY long post, but at the last minute I erased the whole thing and started over again because the original one sound way too much like a rant and that is not what I was intending to do here.

Never the less....

 I want a family much like this one:

Picture courtesy of National Geographic. It was the only picture I could find with two big bears and a multitude of little bears. 

Ok so maybe not EXACTLY like this one lol but similar.

Growing up I never had the ideal family. I came from a broken home and a broken family. Still today, I have yet to really have a family, all though slowly but surely one is forming.

I think everyone wants more for their children than what they had growing up. The main thing that I want to make sure my son has is a big loving family. LOVING being the key word there.

So, I have made a vow to try my hardest to make one hell of a family for my son, for Anthony, and for myself.

Here are some of the things I dream of:

1. Everyone in the family loving each other and showing affection
2. Family movie night, where we all snuggle on the couch together
3. Reading bedtime stories together
4. Playing games together on the consoles (mainly because this is Anthony's favorite thing to do)
5. Creating holiday traditions like painting eggs on Easter etc.
6. Always eating at least one meal a day together
7. Trying to spend as much time together as a group
8. Family game night like Hasbro
9. Family outings
10. Baking together (going to be hard to get Anthony to do this one lol)
11. Family photos (I am not hopeful on this at all as I have to pull teeth to get Anthony in a picture, but hey I can dream!)

I really just truly want to surround my my son with love and affection, the best way I know how. I do want to eventually expand out family so that he can have siblings to love and be loved by as well. I think the family in my mind that I picture is probably unrealistic, but that's okay because it is just a goal. I know what is realistic and what is not and I know our family will not be picture perfect, but I am going to try extremely hard to make it as close to perfect as I can.

I can not wait to embark on this beautiful journey with Anthony and our son.

Here's to dreaming and here's to the future!

1 Year Anniversary

Yesterday (December 9th) was Anthony and mine's 1 Year Anniversary (mine's? not sure if that's the right wording or not).

I'm not gonna lie, neither of us remembered our anniversary for most of the day. I finally realized it at around 7 PM.

We could not do anything of course seeing as we were 45 miles away from each other and he had work that night.

I did however get him to agree to call me, and we talked for almost 22 minutes on the phone, which was a record! He hates talking on the phone so this was kind of a big deal for me, to hear his voice for the first time in about two weeks.

Most people think "WOW a year!" but I am thinking.... "A year? that's it?" It really seems like we have been together for a lifetime. It just feels right, being with him.

We have had a few trials in our relationship, but not a single fight yet. I hope to never have a fight with him, but I don't think that that is a realistic hope.

I really do love Anthony with everything that I am. He makes me more happy than anyone or anything on this planet or outer space for that matter! While we do have our problems, he is the absolute best and I wouldn't trade him for the entire world.

Only, two more weeks until I go to Kissimmee for two months and he comes back to my house to move in! I just can't wait! I hope and pray everyday that everything goes well and God allows us to be a family, along with Bear and Charlie.

I would post some cute pics of us but, over the whole year, I have only had the chance to obtain FOUR pictures of us together (and he was sleeping in two of those)! This makes me sad, I wish Anthony was willing to take more pictures with me, but every time I try he takes the camera away from me :[

So, here's to us! Happy anniversary to my sweet brown bear, I deeply hope that we will be able to enjoy a life time of anniversaries together.

I may or may not have a Muffin Tin Meal to post later today, it depends on how this evening goes.

And I haven't forgotten about the December Photo-a-Day Challenge either! I know I am a bit behind but I plan to put up a make up post tomorrow. :]

Happy Monday!

Silent Sunday: Fridge Fun

Fruice is what I call Anthony :)

11 Month Anniversary

I can hardly believe that Anthony and I have been together 11 months now! We celebrated our 11 month Anniversary on November 9,2012 by of coarse doing absolutely nothing lol.When I approached Anthony and told him it was our 11 month anniversary, he replied with something to the effect of "I don't celebrate months" that is so typical of him! I guess I will have to wait until next month and see if we actually do something for our 1 year. C:

We ate donuts for breakfast and played some Rayman Origins on his computer when he got back from work. Not the biggest celebration, but I think the day was absolutely perfect and I am thankful for every minute that we are able to spend together. I really do wish and hope for a lifetime of memories with him.

So here's to 11 months and hoping that we can be blessed enough to spend the rest of our lives together happy and healthy.

Anthony and Charlie cuddling the morning of our anniversary.

Did I ever mention that I have an infatuation with candy?!?! :p Anthony bought these for me this weekend. We were so exited to try the sharks, and have been looking for a place that sold them for a while but it turned out they were less than yummy compared to the others.