It's Okay Thursday

Linking up today! You should join the fun too!
It's ok that...

1. I went to bed at 7:30 last night and got NOTHING done
2. I didn't post Bear's weekly update today because I didn't upload my new pictures last night like I was planning to
3. I need more money
4. My Etsy shop will not launch until April 7th rather than the original planned date of March 31st
5. I have not had much time to spend with my family latley (ok so that REALLY is NOT ok! lol)
6. It took me over 5 hours to write this post because I kept stopping and starting again
7. I have like 7 things on my "To do before Spring Break" list that I have NOT done and Spring Break starts in 45 minutes!
8. I am super scared to take my baby to the beach next week because I think he will get a sun burn
9. I have to go to my friends son's 3rd birthday on Saturday and I have not a clue what to buy him (and it does not help that I am on a very tight budget either)
10. My poor baby got his first boo boo a few days ago! A scratch on his face from his nails, this wasn't a gimpy "goes away in two days scratch" like he got as a NB either, this was a DEEP scratch, poor thing clawed himself
11. My (100% trained) dog is now peeing on the carpet everyday (something new he started doing out of no where), sometimes 2 times a day (Deer Charlie, you need to STOP! one can only take so much before they give up)

I Spy a Blower

I originally took this picture to show the huge blower that was set up by my apartment complex on Valentines day to dry out our saturated wall after our apartment was flooded by an overflowing toilet on the third story. When I went back and looked at this picture I realized that it had A LOT going on!

So lets play a little game of I Spy.

1.  I Spy... a blower. This blower was very icky looking too! Wonder what made the thing black. It is also unplugged in this picture because we had moved it to set up our washer and dryer.
2. I Spy... a big whole in the wall. This is the whole the apartment complex came in a cut to see how bad the damage was from the flood. This was on Valentines day and the whole has been patched now but still has yet to be painted so it is now a big grey rectangle on my wall.
3. I spy... my sweet baby in his swing. This was the day after we bought his swing. He was lovin it right from the start.
4. I spy... a changing mat and a wet diaper on the floor. This was taken right after we changed him. You can tell the diaper was wet because the blue line. These are new color changing Pampers so it is easy to tell if baby needs to be changed. Love them!
5. I Spy... a Skylanders poster. Anthony and I are fans of Skylanders! We do not play very often but we like to collect the little figures. We have not bought any in a long long time but we still do look at the new ones when we pass by the isle in Wal-Mart. That post is so low because it is actually there to cover up a bunch of scuff marks that were made by my ex-roommates cats from jumping on my bike 348574 times a day. The bike was against the wall and the rubber grip caused the marks. I could not move the bike because they had the living room FILLED with junk.
6. I Spy... an orange Guitar Hero controller. This thing is AWESOME! It is the real feal and weight of a real guitar! I love it so much. I got it on eBay for $100 and have been looking for another one but can not find one anywhere.
7. I Spy... Anthony's old sandals. So glad we laid those things to rest! They always turned his feet blacker than a tar road!
8. I Spy... a VHS player. I love my VHS player! Bear even has a collection of over 50 Disney VHSs to watch when he gets older :]
9. I spy... a clear Wii controller. This controller is brand new but for some reason we can not figure out how to sync it to the Wii for the life of us! So sad because we can't afford to buy a new one and we really want to play Kirby Yarn together :[
10. I Spy... a Wii. Even though the new Wii U came out I think I am going to stay with the Wii. At least until Nintendo starts making all the cool stuff only available on Wii U, then if the money is there I may get a Wii U. Notice I have the new black Wii. Wish I had the older white one because this one does not have the controller jacks so I can not use a normal style controller unless I buy the super expensive wireless one they just came out with, BOO!
11. I Spy... an Xbox. Love my Xbox! We use it everyday but mainly just to watch Netflix.
12. I Spy... Sesame Street! Yes Bear is watching Cookie Monster talk about the letter Y here :] I do not think he "watches" it but I know he enjoys listening to the fun sounds and music that is why we put it on. Love that show for him it seems like a really good kids show, not trashy like a lot of the ones you see on TV now a days.
13. I Spy... a car seat. Looks like we had just gotten home from the store.
14. I Spy... the hallway light. This should be off but it is on. SIGH. We are having a hard time remembering to turn off lights. I often find myself looking around and wondering why there are 7 lights on. I am scared to see the electric bill this month!
15. And last but not least! I Spy with my little eye.... chunks of drywall on the carpet! This was from when the maintenance guys cut the whole in the wall. They later came back and vacuumed them up.

A picture is worth a thousand words! In this case this picture really does tell a story about what was going on in our life at the time it was taken. It is quite amazing to think about that concept really.

Letters to my Long Lost Friends (High School)

Ever wonder what happened to your long lost friends? This is something I think about all the time. Currently I do not have any friends, I have LOTS of acquaintances but no friends. This kind of upsets me at times but not really, as I barely have time to watch TV now a days let alone hang out with friends.

Letters to my long lost friends:

Camilo:
You were my first guy friend and we met when we were 15 and in the 9th grade! I believe we met in art class. We hung out in there, after school, before school, during lunch, and even on occasion outside of school. I had a lot of fun with you, we used to talk about guys together as you were gay, I always thought that was cool. You helped me through many hard things that I was struggling with in my life at that time. I really appreciated your support. We made a lot of awesome memories at my house, your house, and even Busch Gardens. We ate cotton candy... lots of it! and got our lemonade wet. We even went to the movies and saw I believe Spider-Man 2. Once 10th grade came around, you were changed though. It seemed like you had tons of new friends and just left me behind. You didn't treat me like your BFF anymore, you would only hang out with me for like 10 minutes before running off to be with someone else. I was heartbroken over this. You were really the only friend I had at the time, and I felt abandoned and alone. Even though we were not that close anymore we remained friends through out 10th grade. I eventually dropped out of school and went to be with Zack, we still were friends at that point. We even hung out a few times together, you, Zack, and I. I remember we had a big sleepover one time, it was really fun. One day Zack decided he didn't want to hang out with you any longer and I had to go along with it, so we lost contact. About 2 years later Zack and I broke up and I got back in contact with you, but you turned a cold shoulder to me, you didn't seem to understand why I put Zack before you and wanted nothing to do with me. We lived down the street from each other and you wouldn't even come and see me. Despite all the friend requests I have sent you, you still won't add me on Face Book. I guess I really upset you. I am sorry and I wish we could be friends again.

Sarah:
I met you when I was 16 and in the 10th grade! We met in the oddest of ways, I remember I was walking around at lunch time with another one of my friends, Kellum, and we were saying that we were an incomplete water molecule, that he was the H and I was the O but we needed another O to make H2O! We asked you to come be our O and you said yes! I have no clue what we were thinking lol. After that we were friends though. Kellum quickly stopped hanging out with us and it was just you and I. We were lone wolfs together, both kinda friendless at the time. You were shy like me, I think we had similar anxiety problems. We ate lunch together and talked about stuff, I always told you about the craziness in my life and I you always told me about the simplicity of your life. I always felt like a bad ass compared to you. Your life seemed so calm while mine seemed very well... messed up. I talked about Zack a lot once I met him and you always told me he was bad for me but I never cared to listen. I do thank you for trying, you were right. Eventually I left with Zack and you remained at school. I remember the whole reason I created a Face Book was so I could talk to you! That was a fail, as our conversation was quickly ended, you seemed to have a busy life and no time to talk to me. You also moved away to some far state to go to college, I think for a drama or music major or something like that. It was the college you dreamed of going to in high school, you were always really smart, it didn't surprise me when I found out you achieved your goals. We are still friends on Face Book, but I am not really sure what you are up to these days as you do not post that much. It would be cool to reconnect with you someday.

Angalie:
You were my first neighborhood friend after my family and I moved into their new house. We met when I was 14 and in the 9th grade. We did not have any classes together when we were in 9th grade but in 10th we did. We always got in groups and did projects together. I remember we used to walk around outside and sometimes hang out in your house. One time I had cake at your house on a plate that had a picture of a guy grilling a burger. I thought this was kinda odd since you guys are Hindu and vegetarians. We didn't hang out much at my house. I think this was because we did not share very many interests. I wanted to be really close friends with you but you just kept pushing me away. I kind of got the vibe that you did not like me all that much but were pretending to be my good friend. In 10th grade we started getting rides together. My dad took us to school and your friend took us home. We talked on the way but never got really close as friends. I no longer talk to you. Last time we talked you said you and your family had moved to Lakeland. I hope you are doing well. I wonder if you are married too? I don't think we will ever be close friends because of our clashing interests. I did enjoy the times that we hung out though.

Silent Sunday: B is for Bear

A Letter to Vannah

Dear Vannah,

What are you doing?!?! I see you walking around my apartment complex with a large group of boys, most of them with their pants falling off so bad they have to hold them on. I can tell you guys are up to no good.

We were never really were what I would call "friends". I think acquaintances would be a better word. We hung out a few times maybe 10? Never doing anything kosher. I know it is not my place to say but I honestly think you need to get your act together. You are 17 years old, not in school, don't have a job, and all you do all day is hang out and do "bad" things with those hoodlums that live near me. I know what you guys are up to in that apartment and I am sure a lot of others do as well. It really breaks my heart to see someone like you fall off the wagon and hit your head so hard. You still have time to get it together though! Man do I wish I could say that to you in person. I swear I would if I didn't have a really bad anxiety problem.

I see myself in you. At that age I was like you, I didn't care about anything. I just wanted to have fun. My thoughts were "well this makes me happy so I am going to do it". I never once thought about how it made others feel or how I was ruining my life until it was much too late. I am sure you have heard this from many people but you don't care. I never did. No one was going to stop me from doing what I wanted to do. And no one did. I just had to find out the hard way.

I have seen you face to face about 4 times in the last week. You have looked at me but not said anything at all. Not even a wave. Makes me wonder what is going through your mind. Maybe we never really were "friends". I never say hi because of my anxiety but I know you do not have any of that. To be honest every time I see you and I am by my apartment, I make sure to steer clear of my front door so you do not find out which one I live in. This is because I fear you and your friends will rob me. Yes, I fear you will rob me! Not because that is something you would do but because you are hanging out with people that do those kinds of things. I wonder how you would feel if you actually knew that someone felt scared to let you know where they live.

Oh, Vannah! Please get it together! I will be praying for you. I hope so badly that you realize that you are going down a long path of destruction. And I hope that you stop on that path and turn down another much better one.

Friday's Letters

Dear Kristen, you randomly came up on my mind today at work. I know you are working for the School Board because I keep seeing your name appearing in the SAP reports. When I try and talk to you about it on Facebook you ignore me! I thought maybe you just did not want to talk about your job so I asked a question about your dog and you ignored that too :[ this upsets me. Wish you weren't so mean we have only known each other like 15 years! Anyways glad I got that off my chest! Dear Wal-Mart and Publix too, I am coming to you guys today! And if you take more than $280 of my my money we are going to have a beef! Dear Black Dog Lady, please close the Etsy case that you have open against me, I sent you your money! What more do you want from me? Dear Anthony, I love you. That is all. Dear Stress, you can go away now :O I have everything under control... I think. Dear School, I have no clue if I am going to be able to go to you again in the Fall like I have been planing. I just have WAY too much going on. Working, coming home to cook and clean, and running an Etsy shop, all the while taking care of a 2.5 month old and trying to spend time with my boyfriend too! Where will I ever find the time to squeeze you in? Hope you are not too offended! Dear Bent O' Clock, I am having so much fun running you! I can not wait to see how things progress. I only have one follower so far but hey one is better than none! Dear The Walking Dead, You are an awesome show and I am enjoying waiting you after 4 flop shows! Thank God I finally found a new show to watch! Dear Fat Pants, you are so soft and comfy. And last but not least Dear Self, please try to keep sane with all that is going on in life right now!

10 Weeks Old!

Since Bear is getting bigger now he is having less milestones and changes in one week. So my weekly posts are going to be a lot shorter from now on.

He is definitely smiling a lot more! I even got a bunch on camera too :] We took him to the Strawberry festival this week and on his first shopping trip too. He is getting more active now kicking his feet a lot and moving his arms all around. He fists seemed to stay closed more than they were but this may just be due to the cold weather.

He is in all good health. He seems to be doing well with the 4oz of formula and is having less projectile vomiting and fussiness. His rash on his leg has also gone away Yay!

His skin is definitely getting darker too! I can't wait to see if he turns out dark like his daddy!

He is still gaining weight everyday, I can now only hold him while I am standing or walking for about 10 minutes before I am tired and have to put him down! He's turning into a big boy! He is also now fitting quite a bit of size 0-3 months clothes and almost out of newborn completely. I hope he stays at size 0-3 months for a long time because we have like 4857439858 different outfits in that size lol.

He is sleeping pretty well too still waking up once around 1AM and then again at around 6 AM then back to bed until about 9 AM.

All in all he is doing great and so are we!